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dreaming_dragons) wrote2013-04-30 01:43 pm
dreaming_dragons) wrote2013-04-30 01:43 pm
Come, As You Are, As You Were, As I Want You To Be
Yeah, this was the 'week from hell', coupled in with last week. Last week was...errghh...
At any rate, things're winding down, which is fun. Also very good, because if I have to suppress another plot bunny attack it will be the end of me.
Again, bleh.
At any rate, from screwing up a bit last week when it came to making an appointment; if this person is not mad a me, then I will consider it a miracle because this would be the second time this semester I've done this. Sure, it's accidental and I don't mean it but still, once is an accident, twice is carelessness. I'm tired of that, getting a whole bunch of things right and screwing up on the one thing I really don't want to mess up on. Just, my life right now....
BLEH.
Dunno, things get weird sometimes anyhow. Like my whole abandonment deal. Sometimes it just feels like anyone I may have considered a friend outgrows me at some point in some moment in time. I'm kind of the imaginary friend that no one wants anymore, or the toy people keep handing off to other people because it isn't what they want anymore.
At any rate, things're winding down, which is fun. Also very good, because if I have to suppress another plot bunny attack it will be the end of me.
Again, bleh.
At any rate, from screwing up a bit last week when it came to making an appointment; if this person is not mad a me, then I will consider it a miracle because this would be the second time this semester I've done this. Sure, it's accidental and I don't mean it but still, once is an accident, twice is carelessness. I'm tired of that, getting a whole bunch of things right and screwing up on the one thing I really don't want to mess up on. Just, my life right now....
BLEH.
Dunno, things get weird sometimes anyhow. Like my whole abandonment deal. Sometimes it just feels like anyone I may have considered a friend outgrows me at some point in some moment in time. I'm kind of the imaginary friend that no one wants anymore, or the toy people keep handing off to other people because it isn't what they want anymore.
It kind of reminds me of this one Doctor Who quote "When you run with the Doctor, it feels like it will never end. But however hard you try you can't run forever. Everybody knows that everybody dies and no one knows it like the Doctor. But I do think that all of the skies of all of the worlds might just turn dark if he ever, for one moment, accepted it." (River Song). Poignant, but if you were hoping for a more artful explanation, you would have to catch me after I managed to get more than three hours of sleep a night. My mind is just burnt out right now.
Though, aside from all of the muses being muses and all of the schoolwork being schoolwork, things aren't so bad. The whole abandonment thing is more of something I know is there, but don't let bother me too much. Like the Doctor.
...Yes, I'm well aware I probably need therapy.
Though, aside from all of the muses being muses and all of the schoolwork being schoolwork, things aren't so bad. The whole abandonment thing is more of something I know is there, but don't let bother me too much. Like the Doctor.
...Yes, I'm well aware I probably need therapy.